I’ve been trusting doctors a lot lately.
Last year, I was experiencing significant stomach issues that I could no longer ignore. There were days when I felt fine. Normal, even. And then there were days when I’d wake up and just know it was going to be a rough one.
On top of the stomach issues, I would have days where I felt completely depleted, with barely enough energy to leave my bed. I was bone-deep tired, feeling like I was walking through water just to get through the day. I knew that I was anemic and I was taking iron supplements, but I couldn’t tell a difference at all. There seemed to be no rhyme or reason, and I quickly grew frustrated.
I finally saw the doctor in early 2019 and to say that it was life-changing would be an understatement. A few tests, scopes, and labs later, I had a diagnosis. A diagnosis came with answers, with treatments, with a game plan.
And here I am in 2020, having just finished my first (and hopefully last) round of iron infusions. We check in a few weeks to see how well my body stores the mineral, but I can already see changes. My skin, usually so pale in color, is now tinted pink in my hands and feet.
Healthy.
And the thought strikes me that I would still be sick and miserable if I hadn’t taken the chance and trusted the doctors. Each one (there have been four to be exact, and several kind nurses who have stabbed me for my blood) has had a part in changing my health. Giving me better.
If I trust my life and my good to these fragile humans, how much more can I trust it to my perfect Heavenly Father? Who knows me inside and out, without need of a scan or needle to know the contents of my every cell?
I can’t see the iron in my veins or the healing of my stomach lining, but I can see and feel the effects of it. I can’t see the faith in my veins or the healing of my soul, but I can see and feel the effects of it.
I’ve been trusting doctors a lot lately. But I’ve been trusting God a lot lately, too. And I think it’s changing my life.
I think it’s changing me.
Love it and love you my beautiful daughter!
It is so beautifully written! You’re using the gifts God has given to you so wonderfully! Love all of your writings and love you!